I’ll have a pearl soon

Sunday 12 October 2008 @ 10:36 PM

Current mood: blessed

I learnt a lot last Friday at GFRESH from Cat’s preaching. Just thought I would share it with anyone who missed out, or anyone who wants to know what I got from it personally. Because even though she was talking to all of GFRESH and the youth kids that visited from Bellmore, this is the first time that I have ever sat through a preaching and really felt like God was saying, “Hey, I’m talking to YOU.”

Out of the approximate 6.7 billion people in this world, only 4 of them know of a particular struggle I’ve had in my life lately. I don’t plan on increasing that number any time soon, so please don’t ask me what the struggle was. The point of me mentioning that, though, is that I thought I couldn’t live without this “thing”, and even though these 4 people would tell me over and over again that I should let go and move on to something that would actually benefit me, I refused to listen because I was too engrossed in what I had discovered, in what I thought was perfect and ideal for me.

I wrote in a previous blog about an iron rod that I had let go of. Well, I did let go of the rod, but picked it up again almost straight away. Why? I DON’T FREAKIN’ KNOW. But have you ever had a bruise on you that didn’t really hurt just being on your leg or wherever it was, but every time you applied a little pressure to it, the pain felt somewhat pleasant? I guess it was kinda like that. Well, this time I really did let go of the iron rod. For good.

Cat talked about the limits placed on man (and woman) in terms of what we can and cannot do, what will benefit us and what will hinder us. Genesis 2:15-17 is an example of God giving us limits right at the beginning – he told Adam and Eve that they must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, but at the same time, he wasn’t going to strike them with a lightning bolt if they did. We still have our free will.

1 Corinthians 10:23 tells us that while everything is allowed/permitted, not everything is beneficial/constructive/good for you. Adam wasn’t allowed to eat the fruit, but it wasn’t going to benefit him in the long run – he would eventually die. But if Adam wasn’t given the opportunity to be disobedient, we wouldn’t know if he was truly obedient.

Cat mentioned the new NRMA ads – “Un your life.” She explained that “un” was a prefix that referred to the absence of quality or implies the reverse of the adjective that it is attached to. She told us that despite that fact that we are human and have a limited ability to do things, the God that created us lives in us, which makes us unlimited.

Our body is a temple, a house for the Holy Spirit to dwell in, but our heart is God’s home, where he dwells. But there are a lot of things that will compete for your heart. Things that are from God, things that are of this world. Some of these things are ok; they’re good in themselves, but once they take priority over God and take up more room in your heart than they should, that’s where you’ve got a problem.

It was at this point that I knew God was really talking to me. I knew what it was he was talking about, and I knew I had to get rid of it before it really took a hold of me and destroyed me. There was something in my heart that I needed to push out from First Priority, and eliminate from my life. Thinking about it now, it’s a little bit like the story in 1 Samuel 15 when God told King Saul to attack the Amalekites and completely destroy everything that belongs to them, and to not spare the life of a single person or a single animal. I feel like King Saul except this time I’m not going to keep the Amalekite King prisoner, and I’m not going to keep the “best cattle and sheep” to sacrifice to God. God’s instructions are to destroy it, not to kept some left over to give back to him. God doesn’t want my leftovers – he wants me.

Matthew 7:6 says “…Do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces.” The pearls are symbolic of the things you treasure, and especially, your heart, while the pigs represent a dishonourable person. God was poking me in the side, saying, “Are you listening? Are you listening?” DON’T give your heart to someone who doesn’t deserve it, which is EVERYONE. Yes, God has someone for you, and that person is waiting for you, too, but while it IS your heart, it’s not yours to give away. If you give your heart to someone before the “right time”, that person may break it, or run away with it, and you’ll be left broken and damaged. Give your heart to God, and when God reveals to you who that “special someone” is, you’ll be ready. Don’t be the one to tell God when you’re ready. HE CREATED YOU. OF COURSE HE KNOWS WHEN YOU’RE READY.

I’m still not done. Do you know how a pearl is made? If you were there on Friday, and PAYING ATTENTION, then you’d know. If you don’t know, I’ll tell you. An oyster shell will be sitting on the ocean floor and a parasite may get into it’s shell, or the shell may be wounded or damaged. The parasite or wound irritates the oyster, and to eliminate the irritation, it releases a number of chemicals and minerals that mix together to attack the parasite or heal the wound. This results in a pearl, one of the most highly-prized gems in the world. The point of this is that the best is produced as a result of irritation, from fighting off what’s unnecessary. We can’t become the best if we haven’t defeated the competition, and neither can we attain the best if we keep hoarding unnecessary objects, ideas, thoughts, worries, problems, traits and characteristics.

Last point. Cat shared about how the other week she had surgery to have something removed from her body. A lump that wasn’t supposed to be there. (Sorry Cat if you didn’t want the whole world to know. You told all of GFRESH anyway =P) She described how she was given anaesthetic so she wouldn’t feel the pain, but it still managed to hurt. What she learnt from this experience is that when God tries to extract something that’s latched on to you, it will hurt.

What I went through should never have happened. I was rushing things, making my own plans and trying to run my life, when in fact, it’s not even mine to begin with. But I learnt my lesson, and I got what I deserved. Letting go is gonna be painful, but in the end it’ll all be worth it. The best is waiting for me, and one day I’ll have a pearl, too.