He doesn’t even care about it anymore… – a fulmination

Tuesday 29 April 2008 @ 10:54 PM

[Initial state of mind: angry, annoyed, irritated, pissed off]

Oh, but he still cares about me. Definitely. I mean, how can you tell someone “I love you” and “best friends forever” but not care about them? Of course, that would be INSANE, right? Because then you’d be what people call a LIAR.

So… after all this blows over, where are we? Back to where we started, at the beginning of this roller coaster we call “LIFE”, pulling the safety bar over our heads and feeling it lock up tightly against our chest as we feel our bodies tingling with excitement, while looking forward to the rush of adrenaline that we’ll get from charging downhill, but also shivering with fear as we anticipate the possibility that there’ll be an unpleasant surprise waiting at the bottom.

On the other hand, at the flick of a switch, it could all be OVER.

One small word, containing only four out of a possible 26 letters. But it means so much. Just like “hate”, “love”, “babe”, “jerk”… Use them appropriately in a sentence, or even on its own, and throw it at someone that you hold close to your heart at any moment in time, and everything could come crashing down, just like that. Flick a switch and watch how the light will turn on almost as soon as you hear the “click” sound.

[Current state of mind: confused, puzzled]

Doesn’t it amaze you how something you’ve worked so hard to build and then maintain its stability could fall apart in only a fraction of the time that it took to get where you are? It takes 9 months for a life to be fully developed, and it could be gone in the blink of an eye. It takes several or hundreds of years for a building to be constructed, and it could collapse in a matter of seconds. But why, if we know that the possible outcomes of neglect, mistrust, acting out of anger or stupidity, ignorance and uncooperativeness are defeat, failure, catastrophes and unproductiveness, do we still do the things that we humans do? Why are we constantly driving ourselves to the edge of the cliff to see how close we can get to it without falling, even though the reason why there’s a “caution” sign 3 metres away from it is to warn us of the danger that exists beyond?

When people tell you that what you’re doing is wrong, acknowledge what they’re saying. DON’T NOT listen, DON’T NOT obey, and DON’T NOT act on it. Even if they haven’t experienced what you’re about to encounter, it doesn’t mean that they don’t know what lies ahead. Sometimes all it takes to avoid those sticky circumstances is to heed warnings.

[Refined state of mind: revelation, epiphany]