(More like a lesson that I’ve been learning the past several months, but I only realised this barely 2 minutes ago.)
Dwelling on the past causes more pain
than when you were living in it as the present.
When it was the present, you were numb to the whole situation. You were oblivious to everything around you. You were deaf and blind, and none of your senses were working to their full potential. They still work, but not as well as they should be.
However, once it’s passed and you’ve (apparently) moved on, you look back on what you went through, it seems to hurt so much more. Why?
You’d think that because you’re not in that situation anymore, the pain would dissipate quickly. But, you see, while the band-aid keeps the germs and the dirt away and out of the cut on your arm, that cut will not heal properly unless you wash it and expose it to oxygen.
Likewise, your heart will keep hurting if you try to nurse the wounds with kind words, hugs and kisses, comforting anecdotes and fake smiles. Let God breathe on you. Only He can bring you healing. And only His Word can restore your soul.
When you look back on your past, you are finally able to see all the pain and suffering you went through while in that (or those) situation(s). You tend to feel sorry for yourself, which is why even though you’ve “let go and moved on,” it still hurts like hell. It’s not supposed to hurt, right? You’ve moved on. You’ve let go. Why are you experiencing unbearable pain?